November 4, 2011, My aunt Barbara peacefully slipped into eternity after a four year battle with breast cancer. I didn't know her well, but well enough to know that she was one of the only people on my dad's side of the family that acknowledged my existence and made me feel like family. She was a crafty lady, had a woodshop, loved to paint, and was very interested in Native American culture. She was goofy, perfect person to chat with to perk your spirits, and was very much a realist. She sounds so familiar? ;)
I love her for the person she was and miss her favorite way to end a call or letter--"I love you BEST". It breaks my heart that we couldn't have had more time together in this lifetime, but I remain grounded knowing she has received a new body and has been welcomed home with a big hug from Jesus himself. What a beautiful feeling that must be, to not be sick anymore. She has a new-found radiance that Oil of Olay can't hold a candle to. I'm certain that she will probably be one of the first people I see when I get to heaven and I can't wait for that overdue hug.
The fiance to the late Heath Ledger, Michelle Williams, stated in an interview that after Heath's death, she has begun to look at life through the lens that sees everything as impermanent. She dedicates her thoughts to focus on what really matters now; and it puts the trivial matters of life in the shadows. I think sometimes I get numb to the everyday regularity and need someone to come along and snap their fingers and say, "Wake up!" I will confess that I have gotten lazy. When I was in college, I kept up a house, worked 2-3 jobs, and felt the satisfaction of really going for what I wanted or needed to. Now, I am getting motion sickness from my mundane 9-5, M-F life; time is seriously spinning out of control before me and I'm very dizzy.
I woke up on November 4. I sat and thought, I do not want to taste the bitterness of disease; I am tired of not looking and feeling my best; I desire to have my full energies and ambitions restored. I want to also look through a lens that sees everything as impermanent and for the time being on earth, want to enjoy every last drop of it. I took a big step in the right direction and signed up with Beachbody to start my own fitness journey. I will be starting Turbo Fire workouts, using Shakeology to amp up my vitamins/minerals, and trying harder to lead a healthier lifestyle.
I can do this, for the sake of my health and happiness. May the spirit that lives in my 3 aunts who have dealt with breast cancer abide in me so I can succeed at my goals. Fight to the finish line....
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